Thank you


Small child,
Thank you for showing me the world through your eyes
For making it important to watch insects
For giving me many excuses to inspect
Berries and bicycles and people passing by
For finding entertaining bees or butterflies

Because we are never waiting

We need no help to pass the time
With my hand in yours or yours in mine

Because with you I have a new
excuse to sing

It’s legitimate
To dance in the street
To watch closely each others feet

Splashing in puddles and rustling through leaves
Laughing madly breathless and free

I have every right when you are with me,
To play with sticks, to scream a bit
To look up at the sky
Count cars driving by

At ducks we quack back
At birds we tweet
We don’t even try to be discreet

In the morning sun we linger
With shadow puppet fingers
Hiding snacks for squirrels on the path
And pulling faces that make us laugh

You don’t talk yet and so I’m fluent
In how to do all the talking while we play truant
Picture of Jeanette and her grandson to illustrate the theme of the poem

Little Things

Grandma, 
Sounds like 'mam mar'

The day you first pronounced that word
You crowned me,
Giving me the best title I'd ever heard

'Grandma',
You say this with some passion
Sometimes in almost desperate fashion
As if you need to be rescued

When this word is most used,
You're waiting to be scooped up
And may have recently refused
To comply

You and I
A new duo
Me and Juno

When I go out of a room
I hear you
'Mam mar'
Not wanting to be left out
Of whatever adventure I'm on

Because yes, when we are together
Every small thing we do, whatever
is a special occurrence
a big new experience
A happening
With you, there are no little things



Tracing paper


In the sandy shadow of the beige fronted buildings I pass
Sometimes lost in a shady labyrinth, of narrow paths
A confusing shortcut making a wrong turn
Spilling me then into crowds of Saturday shoppers
Newly trendy vendors selling specialities in street art squares
Places to be where freshly brewed coffee perfumes the air

Born again quarters named after new tram stops
Ushering in gentrification with organic food shops

Despite its many changes of direction
This street map holds on to my affection

Only I can see the tracing paper layer of where
I see the traces of moments of our lives in places

The cartography of my memories overlay
Coordinates that my heart strings play
Etched in the air, as I turn that corner there
As if sketched on a layer of see-through paper
The image of a memory’s trailing vapour
Of a moment, years ago, at this exact location




On the sharing of books


Sharing books with one you love,
talking of books you have loved and lived
through their characters now in you.

The rifling through colourful covers almost coveting their re discovery

That one, takes you back
always a girl when inside those pages,
the person you were whatever your age was
when that story first inhabited you,
as it still does now

Making you up
made of
that book,
now it takes one you love into it’s embrace
its story never to be erased

This one, stirs your heart
with an almost love sick yearning
to be turning back time
to be the one first opening it’s chapter one
but knowing now, it will capture one you love,
who will follow your footsteps down this path to you,
getting closer.


Juno


These four letters spell your name. 
Meaning love, and
that I will never be the same. 

Juno, a sound, that sets off cascading stars bright sunlight, flocks of birds, flowers bursting into bloom, just at the thought of you.

Juno, how my heart is full. 

The possibility of fun now endless. 
On the floor in piles of toys, making a mess
With you, it’s all new. 

When you smile at me I am invested with special powers. 
When you reach for me I am chosen. 
When you look at me, I am rich.
When you laugh I am drunk, with happiness. 

When you hold me I want you to stick, like glue.
Juno you have made me new.

Juniper Berry

Juniper, 
Two bright berry eyes
Staring, round at me
Amused easily

Top lip curling into grin
Tiny double chin

Open mouthed in glee
Staring up from my knee

Ready for a new small adventure

And egging me on
Intensely

Juno, I know

A world of perfection

In an imperfect world

Who wants a lift

Who wants a lift
When you can do this
When you can take a whiff 
Of the scents of leaves underfoot
When you can sniff the air
Feel the softest breath of the breeze on your skin
Feet sinking into soft pathways
Freshly made by the morning rain

For too long I didn't know 
Nothing is better than a slow stroll 
Close to the river's ebb and flow 
A tree canopy so close it looks like a stroke 
Of green feather dusters 
wiping the sky clean
Of clouds 
It's sharp blue astonishing 
Clear of all but the yellow rays of sun
Reflected artfully in window panes 
Duplicated on the rippled surface
Glimpsed between dancing plants
As I glance 
On my way past, in rapt attention. 

Photosynthesis

Chosen for their character
they made themselves at home
stretching out roots
filling pots and overflowing over tops

Yawning into morning
grown into their spaces
and transforming,
ordinary corners
Into colourful collections 

Taking up odd poses 
adorned with dewdrop jewellery
small bohemians draped in spiderweb scarves
and, sharing a space with guests of other species

Holding an afternoon yoga session
together communing, green and bright,
then craning, towards the retreating evening light.

A case of knowledge

Picture of a reflection in a 1980's Paris street with Jeanette at the time pictured posing for the photo.
Is chat GPT bad at poetry or is it me?
Does it have to rhyme to record my feelings
at one time or another
To track what was important,
like an I woz ere graffiti from the 80's
 AI IS here
accelerating what we now know, 
exacerbating my nostalgia,
for an era we once knew,
a slow time.
When you’d simultaneously press play and record hearing that song you liked on the radio
 that clunk summed it up
the clumsy effort, to be rewarded with a proper play back loop
Not a fake feedback loop
Back when scarcity of information and an itch for knowledge made us visit the library 
to use microfiche
green writing filling a screen full of satisfying curiosities.
Searching shelf by shelf to get knowledge
Following the clues all the way to the copy machine
The world was in a book
The world book
A case of knowledge,
we took the time to digest.
A slow life to be lived
whilst gently polluting as if we knew nothing of it.

Ready or not.

You packed your teddy

But other than that

Seemed ready. 

I packed everything 

But the kitchen sink

But was underprepared.

Time is big.

It envelopes me

Now that there are timelines, 

Three.

The TV is not my companion, 

I’m seeing everything 

From those three angles, 

Three dots on the location finder

Showing that we are far apart,

Mapping out the pieces of my heart.